Here's a short excerpt from my story "The Impact of Change." It's included in the Rachel Kramer Bussel anthology Cheeky Spanking Stories, out now from Cleis Press.
I found, one
late, midsummer afternoon, that I was sick of Ryan spanking me, which came as a
huge surprise. I’d always loved it, always gotten so hot, so wet, so, so, so
turned on by each mouthwatering, cunt-wetting smack of his hand. Or our paddle;
or our strap; or a spatula, once; or a dildo, which happened more than a few
times, each with him taking turns sliding it in and out of my pussy, then
hitting each cheek with a walloping thump. But this afternoon, bent over his
knee, one whole year into our relationship, it just wasn't
doing it for me.
Well, fuck. I knew it was his favorite act, knew his last girlfriend had hated
it—that had been one part of why they’d broken up. So I took each spank like I
always did, pretending that I was having a hell of a lot of fun even though no,
I really wasn't
.
Once he was
done, Ryan put on a condom, and I found I certainly still enjoyed this sex act,
still enjoyed having his lovely cock fuck my pussy. I came, quick and intense,
with only a few rubs of Ryan’s skilled middle finger. He came only moments
later, growling and bucking against me.
We cleaned
up and went out to dinner. But what to do about this problem? Did this mean
more trouble down the line?
During
dinner, Ryan noticed I wasn't my usual talkative self, and he tried to pry the
reason out of me, but I refused to reveal what was causing my lips to mostly
stay shut. After all, how could I tell him? Especially in a fancy restaurant
like this.
“Maybe this
will cheer you up, Toni,” Ryan said, one corner of his mouth turning up in what
I’d always thought of as his “sexy-time grin.”
“Oh?” I
asked. I swallowed the last of my chardonnay. I was more interested in what
kinds of desserts the restaurant was serving than anything sexual at this point
in time, but it certainly wasn’t dessert that always came along with said
“sexy- time smile.”
“Yeah, it’s
something waiting for us at home. In our bedroom. Consider it an anniversary
present. Which, well, is kind of what it is.”
Now, a
gift—that I could get behind. He’d always had exquisite taste in whatever he
picked out for me, and while we’d agreed not to get each other anything for our
anniversary (we were both a little light in our wallets at the moment), I had
already thought once or twice that he might go ahead and get me something
anyway. That was just what Ryan was like, always wanting to show me how much he
loved me, even though all I needed to be reassured of his love were his words
and his affection, something he still hadn’t realized, obviously, or he wouldn't have gotten me something.
“Then I
suppose I’ll skip dessert.” I took Ryan’s hand and kissed it. “I already know
I’ll love it, whatever it is. But you know you didn't have to get me anything.”
“Yes, I knew
that, but I worked out a deal with someone, so you don’t have to worry about it
costing us this month’s rent. It may not have been very pricey, but I have a
feeling you’ll just love it,” Ryan said, and then he winked at me.
“Good. Well,
let’s pay the check and head home, sweetie. I’m dying to find out what it is!”
We had
walked there; the restaurant was only about three blocks from our building, and
luckily, the night was pleasant, with a slight, warm breeze carrying along the
scents of summer. Admittedly, I felt a little giddy at the thought that some
kind of delightful (and probably sexual) surprise was waiting for me at our
place. Whatever it was, I was sure it would align with Ryan’s always perfect
taste. And it did, in a way, although it was nothing like what I’d expected.
When we got
home, Ryan told me to wait about five minutes and then join him in the bedroom.
I did as he said, and then, not knowing what to expect, I turned the doorknob
and went inside. Ryan stood near the bed, completely naked, and sitting on the
bed, wearing just as much as Ryan was—in other words, nothing at all—was one of
the most gorgeous men I’d seen in all my days. Instead of being delighted, or
overjoyed, maybe, that such a lovely specimen sat on our bed, I gasped,
suddenly feeling a little light-headed. Ryan’s gift to me was a man? What on…
what on earth had gotten into my boyfriend?
Yes, we’d
talked, while fucking, about a third—always a man, because while Ryan was bi, I
mostly wasn't—but talking was quite different than doing. Obviously. Why didn't Ryan realize that?
But when
Ryan approached this fine, fine man, when the man stood, and reached up to
Ryan’s head, trailing his fingers through Ryan’s thick hair, when he grabbed my
boyfriend’s ponytail and yanked, hard, and when Ryan’s back bowed back from the
pull of this man’s hand, I practically soaked through my panties. “Oh, my god…”
I said, my voice quiet—reverent, almost. This was, quite possibly, the hottest
thing I’d seen. Ever. In my entire life.